Believe it or not, this blog is five years old as of yesterday.
Yep, my first ever post went up on February 20th of 2013. Five years ago, Valourbörn came to life. Now, five years later, I’ve amassed 259 followers, 18 018 lifetime views, and (as of this post) 289 published posts.
And I’m very sad to say that this will be the last post.
I think I’ve known for a long time that Valourbörn isn’t really something I can–or even really want to–do anymore. I was a very different person five years ago, and have changed dramatically in the past two or three years. The vivid image that I had when I created VB five years ago isn’t really something that comes naturally to me anymore, and I don’t think it’s necessarily a bad thing, more just an unfortunate truth.
I think I put this off for so long mostly because I didn’t want to bring it to an end. I still love the original vision. I love a lot of what I’ve written over the years. And it’s reminiscent of a part of my life that now brings me a lot of happiness and fond memories. I met a lot of great people through this blog, people who are now part of my life even outside of WordPress. And I made a little world for myself here that I kind of wish I could crawl back into.
I guess it’s kind of like childhood, in a way. Like how you think back to when you were a kid, all free and lighthearted and brave, and had so much fun making the world into whatever you wanted. And how you wish that you could go back to it, crawl back into your princess dress or superhero costume and have more of those adventures. I think it’s healthy and fun sometimes, to do things that evoke the essence of childhood, but you can’t live in your childhood forever. Eventually you have to go back to being yourself, and living the adult life you’ve got now (or the weird in-between life that happens in your twenties), and you need to have those adult adventures and make your adult world into something you can love.
I think sometimes that’s harder to do, but I don’t think adult adventures are any worse than childhood adventures. They just often come with more complex feelings, and more difficult lessons that have been learned.
I will never go back to the person I was when I started Valourbörn, so I think it’s time to stop living here. Reminisce from time to time, sure, and draw inspiration from the things I came from. But I’d like to start something new. Something that reflects who I am now and allows me to make a world that suits the life I now lead.
I don’t regret any of what I made here. I don’t think I’d want to change anything (except maybe the number of times I tried to resurrect the poor thing). I think I’ve got a lot to be grateful for, thanks to this blog. So I’m going to honour it, and be grateful for it, and remember it even as I say goodbye.
Thank you, to everyone who has read, liked, and commented. Thank you, to the friends who gave me a chance after reading my words here. And thank you, to my younger self, for making something so wonderful.
And a huge, sincere thank you to everyone who participated in the Your Story projects. To this day, I feel that was the best thing I ever created with this blog, and I feel so touched that you shared your stories here, in a space that was so special to me. You have no idea how grateful I am to have been a part of that.
I’m looking forward to new adventures. I’ve learned a lot and grown even more (though not so much in height, sadly), and I’m hopeful that I can create something new that will reflect that.
May all your adventures bring you closer to where you need to be.
All the best, and thank you again.